Tag: goodenough

I’m in a rad weekly women’s group where we get together weekly in Ceremony and grow together. Our assignment this week was to come up with personal blessing for ourselves to say to the part of ourselves that needs unconditional regard, unconditional love. ❤️

I happen to be having super hard week with my ego and shame and self abandoning behaviors and was feeling kinda dark and at a loss for even how to begin such an assignment.

I was sitting at Twirl play-space (a kid playground mecca) today in the sun, children playing; ruminating on the deep inexplicable sadness I was feeling in the face of all this sunlight;) the observer in me smiling at my current inability to be present.

So sitting in that park I just placed my hand on my heart and I heard:

I am good.

That made me feel a little better. So I tried again and again; I kept allowing more and before I knew it, this blessing tumbled out. The darkness I realized, abated:

I am good
I am worthy of love
I am worthy of others staying with me
I am worthy of myself
I am a creative magical being
Each cell in my body is a masterful creator
I am healed
I am healing
All I need to do is beam my own unique frequency no more no less
My hearts capacity is limitless
I am gratitude
I am abundant
I am sane and create ease in my psyche
I can take care of myself financially
I am able
I am healthy

These blessings are the opposite of some of my core belief structures that have been keeping me stuck, as well as keeping me safe. And I am dismantling them piece by piece.

Initially the simplicity of “I am good” really spoke to the core of my beliefs about my worthiness to exist in this world. But a close friend, after reading my blessing, sent me a message that called me to the carpet about how I tend to play small. I have a fear that I’m too much sometimes. Don’t get too Big Jennifer! Don’t be tooooo MUCH cause they’ll leave if you’re too much, if you’re too little, if you don’t play at what they want you to be.

So here is what my friend said that both made me laugh and made me go, “Hey! Yeah!!:

Griffo: “Dude you’re killing me… just look at you. That should be enough (you). No need to recite hymns. You’re hot fun, not a hot mess. Sexy and alphatastic. So FUCK OFF with the “I’m GOOD”. You’re a fucking badass, bitchin-ass chick. “I am good”… boring!”

So along with being good enough for myself and worthy enough to myself, I’m going to bless myself that I am HOT-FUN, SEXY and ALPHATASTIC!!

Thank you, thank you very much!

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏼❤️❤️❤️#gratefulheart #liveapathofheart #worthy #blessingsandlove  #recovery #learningselflove